Billy Batson's Journal

The feeling of loosing what you always had and forgetting who you always were is painfully stimulating. My atrophied soul lay dormant, resting atop my dreams and goals. To be reborn through heartache, and reinvigorated through change is more than I could have asked for. I’m searching for me in my eyes. Sifting through memories in hopes of finding the star road to Bowser’s Castle in hopes of meeting Mr. Smith. “you don’t know where your going until you know where you’ve been” Here’s where I’ve been....

Ozymandias

“I met a traveler from an antique land
Who said: Two vast and trunkless legs of stone
Stand in the desert. Near them, on the sand,
Half sunk, a shattered visage lies, whose frown,
And wrinkled lip, and sneer of cold command,
Tell that its sculptor well those passions read
Which yet survive, stamped on these lifeless things,
The hand that mocked them and the heart that fed:
And on the pedestal these words appear:
“My name is Ozymandias, king of kings:
Look on my works, ye Mighty, and despair!”
Nothing beside remains. Round the decay
Of that colossal wreck, boundless and bare
The lone and level sands stretch far away.”

Posted May 6, 2012 at 10:01 pm 1 notes

It’s so true in some ways, for me a year ago I thought we were in love. Thinking back the love passed a bit before.

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It’s so true in some ways, for me a year ago I thought we were in love. Thinking back the love passed a bit before.

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Posted April 21, 2012 at 7:01 pm 684 notes

This week has been wonderful so far. It is the perfect example of “Life vs Living”. You see we are all alive (most of us who aren’t dead and hallow inside) and if you can read this you must be living. However, there is a difference between having a heartbeat and laughing in the sun. It’s “YODO” all day because all my evidence shows that you can only die once (rare cases not withstanding) but you can live as many times as there are stars in the sky! I’m on life #2 and I’m trying to live this one right! So with that being said, I want all my peoples to smile real big on this sun shiny Saturday and be thankful for the ability we have to change our minds at a moments notice. This is your life! If you don’t like the story so far, rewrite the book!

Posted April 21, 2012 at 5:55 pm

You know I can’t call it right? This week was crazy busy. From work to running my daddy day care, it has been so tiring but so fulfilling at the same time. Watching my kids air guitar the ghost busters theme (one of my favorite movies) made me smile in my heart. Hearing my home girl compliment me on my strides towards physical transformation made feel accomplished. Watching my man turn nuggets of lead from the bottom of a magic sack into golden trinkets made me believe. I don’t know what tomorrow will bring and I don’t know if anything I’ve planned will work out in the end; but right now now of that matters because I believe. I believed in you guys just as you did in me and that is what keeps me going. Believing that I’ll get there, believing that they’ll be okay, believing that when tomorrow comes I’ll be there pen in hand ready to fight for the future. My shoulders hurt and the house is without the sounds of joy and exuberance that only kids can bring with them. My heart is a little heavy but all in all, I’m happy right now. You should be too.

Posted April 19, 2012 at 8:44 pm

Thoughts from under a Silver Sun

I’m trying to steal back all the precious moments I gave away. Like hands sifting through ash looking for trinkets that might have survived, a futile task for even the most well meaning of us. But, as with all that I do, my heart is in it, so I know that the universe won’t let me down. “no matter where life takes me you can find me with a smile…”

Posted March 28, 2012 at 11:07 am

Poor kids are nicer than rich kids. Generally.

 What I’ve learned is that you can generally tell how “good” or “bad” a kid is by the expensiveness of their gear. The little boys and girls with J’s and jewelry are usually worse off then the angels rocking payless shoes and and no name scarfs. And that’s not just the case with with “urban” gear, I’ve met some jerk faced kids rocking polo shirts and Ralph Lauren scarfs. So I guess it has to do with the mentality of a parent who spends that type of money on their child. Not to say all kids with “nice” or expensive gear are terrible but it seems like the majority of them are rottenly raised and waiting to spoil. This isn’t a grip, just a humorous observation. Dinner to be made but for now it’s Adventure Time with my two favorite kids ;)

Posted December 19, 2011 at 8:11 pm

Late night pondering and convos got my mind somewhere I’d rather not be. This song that my brother Divine Smith put me on too is giving me so much peace right now. The relaxing, melancholy rhythm is soothing.  Sometimes you have a plan and you work on sticking to it and building towards it. Sometimes life is like a big kid who sees you house of blocks decides to kick it to shit. It sucks becasue I worked hard on that house you know, but I don;t want to give up playing with the blocks. I don’t want to stop making houses. So I won’t. When you give up you truly lose. Any progress is forward progress. Time is only wasted if you don’t take anything from it. In truth, nothing is ever wasted if your living it right.

Posted November 28, 2011 at 1:32 am

Urim and Thummim

Urim and Thummim

Posted November 26, 2011 at 8:43 pm

I feel like 25 year old Billy Batson, scarred and disillusioned, tired and weary. The Wizard has been gone for a while and I wish he would have left me a map so I can find my way back to the boy I used to be.

I feel like 25 year old Billy Batson, scarred and disillusioned, tired and weary. The Wizard has been gone for a while and I wish he would have left me a map so I can find my way back to the boy I used to be.

Posted November 23, 2011 at 8:22 pm 1 notes

Locked out and fed up

Such a nice little read that echoes the sentiments I’ve had for about 7 years now. We all know Madden has been slacking since they locked down the rights and locked out their only competition in 2K. Man I dream sometimes what could have been if the boys at 2k could have gone next generation with the franchise. :( I’ll hold my breath until 2013 playing from the list of all the AAA titles that are on their ways. But I won’t ever forget one of the smartest and biggest bitch moves in gaming history.

Posted October 15, 2011 at 4:24 pm